NO DENYING

I’ve procrastinated so many times on starting this blog page for many reasons. One of the main reasons is being afraid to bring others into my world and introducing them to my deepest, truest thoughts. I feel like people see me as this young woman who’s doing good for herself and has it all together but I’m very unhappy. I have the career, but it doesn’t fulfill me. Have you guys ever heard about the crying woman on the train. Google is free so I’m not about to explain the whole story. Essentially, there’s this woman who gets on the train and begins crying. As time goes on the crying gets louder and hysterical. When asked what was wrong the woman states that she realized many stops ago that she was on the wrong train and each stop reminds her that she is going the wrong way. This is me. Starting nursing school I knew it wasn't for me and each step of the journey reminded me that I was going the wrong way but I didn't know which way I would go if I jumped off the train. Now after completing my first year as a nurse I'm reaching my breaking point. I don't know how much longer I can last. The moral of the story is sometimes we go a long way but we’ve gone the wrong way. Like the lady on the train many of us go the wrong way but are too afraid to get off the train and figure it out. I feel like everyone congratulates me for coming a long way, but I’m probably the only person that knows I’ve gone the wrong way.